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Although I think that for me he was perfect. But until now I can't feel any honest feeling from him. Now I think he's kinda change if before this is what I think about him:
1)Understand me
2)Care about me
3)He was the one for me

But now this is what I think about him:
1)Doesn't want to understand me at all
2)Doesn't care about me at all
3)Like to take advantage
4)keep pushing me
5)not honest to me. I can't feel any of it.
6)Is he the one for me???

I continue it later... got some work to do

It was My Fault

Why he didn't want to listen to me? Didn't even want to talk to me. I know I made a big mistake by ignoring him. But I didn't meant it. yeah I know I've being selfish yesterday. I shouldn't do that. Just imagine if you come to someone house then the owner of the house ignore you. Don't you feel some kind of 'malu'. I feel sorry for him. I shouldn't do that. If he find someone to replaced me, I will never blame him. Because I know it was my fault. Now what can I do was waiting for his forgiveness and crying in the whole night.

I beg For your Forgiveness.

I'm so sorry. I didn't meant to hurt you by ignoring you that time. I was so nervous and so scared that time until I couldn't think at all what am I suppose to do, I was so panic that time, because my mom don't let me out, and one thing. Actually I'm not ready yet to meet you. Although we're always chat and meet before. But it was different. That was at school, but now at my home. I don know what am I suppose to say if my parents ask me about you. Please B forgive me. I beg for your forgiveness. I know I'm suppose to talk to you about this thing, and ask for your forgiveness. But you just don't want to hear me. I know the one who pick the phone was you. Because I know your voice, and actually when the first time I call you, I did not mention about who I'm looking for. But the one that pick up the phone tell me that you went out. It was so weird. One more thing, I know I shouldn't ignore you that time. But I don't have any choice. I'm sure if you don't want to forgive me, I will cry the whole night, and I'll think it very deeper than you thought. You are so important in my life. I just can't live without you.I don't want to lose you for the second time. Enough just once. Just once B I suffer because of losing you. I just want you! Just you B. My love will always be yours if you take decision to leave me. There's no one could replaced you in my heart. Although if you see me with other guy. That guy will never replaced you in my heart. You know B, you already took away my heart and my love, and I never beg you to return it to me. Because I don't want to lose you B. You are my life. I just can't live without you. Please forgive me. I didn't meant to hurt you. If only I could turn the time when you came to my house, I'm sure i will treat you well. But I just couldn't do that. I'm begging for your forgiveness, and I promise that thing won't happen again. I just want you to forgive me. That's all. I don't ask much. I just ask you to forgive me. Can you? I'm willing to do anything for you B. Until you forgive me, I will always think about what has happen today. I feel the time went so fast beside me. I feel like I lost myself. I don't know who I am. I forgot about all my happy time because the mistake that I do. What I know is I'm begging for your forgiveness. Please B forgive me. I'm suffer now. My heart was hurt. But I know your heart hurt more than mine. but please B, forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't want to lose you. Because I was so in love with you. forgive me.
Dedicated special to my beloved B. Once again I'm so sorry...

here we go...

Long time no update... hehe kinda bz lately... First, on Saturday, I went to salon with my family to rebonding my hair... So now my hair is straight, soft n silky... Love my hair now... Second, I got a new BF just now... Yeah his not new he was my ex BF that want both of us to be together again... You know among my ex BF, he was the one that I love most... Can't forget him... Althought he was been thrown out from school because he was fighting with some chinese boy at school... I still don't care as long as he promise me that will try to change for me... That's all for today... Till then yawh!!!

16 things girls doesn't know about boys...

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep they always think about the girl they truly care about.
2) Guys are more emotional then you think if they loved you at one point it takes them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they arent with you.
3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile ( :
4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
5) Giving a guy a hanging messa​ge like "You know what uh...never mind....." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking and he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him; not give advice.
7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!
9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.
10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with you.
11) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
12) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
13) No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
14)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.
15) When a guy sarifices his health and sleep just to talk to you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
16) Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

-Everything said in this bulletin is true

-Ladies, if u don't repost this within 1 hr then you will lose the guy of your dreams

Hello everyone!!!

Long time no update... Long time didn't go to school... Don't worry friend I'm still alive... Today so boring, so I took a bottle of chocolate that I buy it my self at Johor Jaya with my mom... That chocolate only left kinda 10++ from the original amount after my family ate it... So I just finish it... Kinda dizzy after ate a lot of chocolate... nothing fun happen today... So till then yawh!!!

The expression of my heart

haha... Long time no update... Kinda lazy, because I have nothing to share with you all... But now I did... Let the story begin...

Well actually I miss someone very much, and I love him very much... I like him kinda 9 month like that... But until now he didn't know about that... I'm to shy to say that I like him... Things that make me fall in love with him is the way he smile and always make me laugh with his stupid joke, but actually that stupid joke that make me love him more than I can say... Now I'm so confused... I don't know what to do... Is there any of you could give me a suggestion??? Hmmmmm... This is what we call love... Sometimes love makes us happy, but sometimes we suffer because of love... In love there is so much choice, but we are the one that have to choose it correctly... But now I don't know what to do and don't know what to choose... So please leave your suggestion and till then yawh!!!