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Although I think that for me he was perfect. But until now I can't feel any honest feeling from him. Now I think he's kinda change if before this is what I think about him:
1)Understand me
2)Care about me
3)He was the one for me

But now this is what I think about him:
1)Doesn't want to understand me at all
2)Doesn't care about me at all
3)Like to take advantage
4)keep pushing me
5)not honest to me. I can't feel any of it.
6)Is he the one for me???

I continue it later... got some work to do

It was My Fault

Why he didn't want to listen to me? Didn't even want to talk to me. I know I made a big mistake by ignoring him. But I didn't meant it. yeah I know I've being selfish yesterday. I shouldn't do that. Just imagine if you come to someone house then the owner of the house ignore you. Don't you feel some kind of 'malu'. I feel sorry for him. I shouldn't do that. If he find someone to replaced me, I will never blame him. Because I know it was my fault. Now what can I do was waiting for his forgiveness and crying in the whole night.

I beg For your Forgiveness.

I'm so sorry. I didn't meant to hurt you by ignoring you that time. I was so nervous and so scared that time until I couldn't think at all what am I suppose to do, I was so panic that time, because my mom don't let me out, and one thing. Actually I'm not ready yet to meet you. Although we're always chat and meet before. But it was different. That was at school, but now at my home. I don know what am I suppose to say if my parents ask me about you. Please B forgive me. I beg for your forgiveness. I know I'm suppose to talk to you about this thing, and ask for your forgiveness. But you just don't want to hear me. I know the one who pick the phone was you. Because I know your voice, and actually when the first time I call you, I did not mention about who I'm looking for. But the one that pick up the phone tell me that you went out. It was so weird. One more thing, I know I shouldn't ignore you that time. But I don't have any choice. I'm sure if you don't want to forgive me, I will cry the whole night, and I'll think it very deeper than you thought. You are so important in my life. I just can't live without you.I don't want to lose you for the second time. Enough just once. Just once B I suffer because of losing you. I just want you! Just you B. My love will always be yours if you take decision to leave me. There's no one could replaced you in my heart. Although if you see me with other guy. That guy will never replaced you in my heart. You know B, you already took away my heart and my love, and I never beg you to return it to me. Because I don't want to lose you B. You are my life. I just can't live without you. Please forgive me. I didn't meant to hurt you. If only I could turn the time when you came to my house, I'm sure i will treat you well. But I just couldn't do that. I'm begging for your forgiveness, and I promise that thing won't happen again. I just want you to forgive me. That's all. I don't ask much. I just ask you to forgive me. Can you? I'm willing to do anything for you B. Until you forgive me, I will always think about what has happen today. I feel the time went so fast beside me. I feel like I lost myself. I don't know who I am. I forgot about all my happy time because the mistake that I do. What I know is I'm begging for your forgiveness. Please B forgive me. I'm suffer now. My heart was hurt. But I know your heart hurt more than mine. but please B, forgive me. I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't want to lose you. Because I was so in love with you. forgive me.
Dedicated special to my beloved B. Once again I'm so sorry...

here we go...

Long time no update... hehe kinda bz lately... First, on Saturday, I went to salon with my family to rebonding my hair... So now my hair is straight, soft n silky... Love my hair now... Second, I got a new BF just now... Yeah his not new he was my ex BF that want both of us to be together again... You know among my ex BF, he was the one that I love most... Can't forget him... Althought he was been thrown out from school because he was fighting with some chinese boy at school... I still don't care as long as he promise me that will try to change for me... That's all for today... Till then yawh!!!

16 things girls doesn't know about boys...

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep they always think about the girl they truly care about.
2) Guys are more emotional then you think if they loved you at one point it takes them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they arent with you.
3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile ( :
4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
5) Giving a guy a hanging messa​ge like "You know what uh...never mind....." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking and he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him; not give advice.
7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!
9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.
10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with you.
11) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
12) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
13) No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
14)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.
15) When a guy sarifices his health and sleep just to talk to you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
16) Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

-Everything said in this bulletin is true

-Ladies, if u don't repost this within 1 hr then you will lose the guy of your dreams

Hello everyone!!!

Long time no update... Long time didn't go to school... Don't worry friend I'm still alive... Today so boring, so I took a bottle of chocolate that I buy it my self at Johor Jaya with my mom... That chocolate only left kinda 10++ from the original amount after my family ate it... So I just finish it... Kinda dizzy after ate a lot of chocolate... nothing fun happen today... So till then yawh!!!

The expression of my heart

haha... Long time no update... Kinda lazy, because I have nothing to share with you all... But now I did... Let the story begin...

Well actually I miss someone very much, and I love him very much... I like him kinda 9 month like that... But until now he didn't know about that... I'm to shy to say that I like him... Things that make me fall in love with him is the way he smile and always make me laugh with his stupid joke, but actually that stupid joke that make me love him more than I can say... Now I'm so confused... I don't know what to do... Is there any of you could give me a suggestion??? Hmmmmm... This is what we call love... Sometimes love makes us happy, but sometimes we suffer because of love... In love there is so much choice, but we are the one that have to choose it correctly... But now I don't know what to do and don't know what to choose... So please leave your suggestion and till then yawh!!!

Tagged by Bell (again)

What have you been doing recently?
*text my fren or online

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
* yeah sometimes

3. What happened at 10am today?
* the internet doesn't work, but now it's ok.

4. When did you last cry?
* a month ago

5 . Believe in Fate/Destiny?
* yeah I guess

6 . What do you want in life now?
* of course a new phone after raya...

7 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
* I prefer umbrella.

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
* sing and listen to music coz music is my soul...

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
* pants

10 . What are the nicest things in your inbox? -
* nah I don't have nice thing in my inbox.

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
* sometimes.

12 . Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
* no

13 . What was the last movie you caught?
* batman & robin last night...

14 . What are you proud of ?
* I'm good in math...

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
* Don't remember...

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
* Acha Septriasa_-_Sampai menutup mata

17. Do you have any nicknames?
* yeah alot

18 . What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
* Da asl email aq x de gmbr from Fatin Sahira.

19 . What time did you go to sleep last night?
* 1am...

20. Are you currently happy?
* yeah

21 . Who gives you the best advice?
* yeah of course my dad..

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
* never...

23 . Who do you talked to on phone last night?
* no one

24 . Is something bugging you right now?
* no

25 . Who is the last person to make you laugh?
* my mom

26.Do you like yourself?
* kinda

27.Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
* yeah.

28.Who is your best friend?
* Nurul Ain Nabiilah

29.What will you do if you like that boy/girl?
* I just see what he's doing and just pretend that I don't like him...

30.Who are your favourite stars?
* Adam AF2

31.You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
* Yeah I guess..

32.Do you had even stead before?
* apa tu?

33.what type of boy/girl do you like?
* Someone that is honest. Like me because of me, just myself. Always there for me and care about me... The most important in no vain...

34.Now are you single/attached?
* single.


I tag:
Ayiep
Nini
Geraldine
Ruirui

tagged by Bell

1.Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
no kissing before marry.
2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNIN?
sleepy
3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
my cousin sister Alya Nadirah
4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
sometimes
5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
Yes maybe.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
yes
7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
of course no
38. What does your last text message SAY?
dah ciap lom?
9. What are you thinking about right NOW?
Bill Kaulitz. He's so damn cute.
10. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Yes yes yes plz.
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
12++
12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Some one gave it to my mom n tadaa I can wear it.
13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
Yes >:D
14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
Syaerra
SEVEN Lucky Person to do this quiz .
1 : NIni
2 : Ayiep
3 : Bell
4 : geraldine
5 : rui
6 : don't know leh
7 :I don't have much fren.
15. Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH?
Don't know.. He's kinda mystery.
16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
FEMALE
17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER, would it be a good?
Don't know
18. What is no.1 studying?
Don't know.
19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM?
Don't know
20. IS no.4 SINGLE?
Still Don't know
21. Say something about no.2.
Pengawas tak boleh harap!
22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER?
Don't know.
23. Describe no.9
Don't know.
24 . What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT?
Don't know
25 . Do you like no.8?
don't know.

Worst

What??? Why my geography can drop until 40++... All my result was worst... I just get 2B and 1D for now... I will tell you all later... Today I didn't go to school because I'm not so well today... So till then yawh!!!

my new boutique on websites

I found a websites that exiting... We can build our own boutique and our own brands... Cool right??? And here's my brands Amelyn95... I like the name and at my boutique all the stuff were cheap.. It was below 95 G-cents(that was the money on that websites)... If you join it I think you'll enjoy it... This is my net name http://www.girlsense.com/boutiques/Amelyn95... Please do visit my boutique...

270809

Long time no update... Kinda lazy... Because I'm having fun on face book n zwinky... Wow today not so tired but I feel thirsty... Not so hungry... today was day 6 of puasa... Tired LOL... But I seem a little bit slimmer than before... So puasa just like kinda diet for girl... Puasa also make us healthy... So till then yawh!!!

150809

Today pengawas had a kursus... So I have to woke up early... HUH so tired LOL... Then we hear speech from teacher, do some activity and play some game... So exiting... But only when En Reezal handle the event... When Cikgu Irha handle it I'm starting to feel sleepy LOL... I almost can't open my eyes... When the event was finish, Cikgu Suhana ask us to go to our own station and then when 1.10p.m teacher ask us to gather at Makmal Grafik to take our lunch... After lunch the muslim go to the mosque and non-muslim heading to class... Today at class we don't learn anything... The part that I like today is when BI teacher give us permission to watch UP movie from her laptop... WOW so exiting... Part that I hate is when we ask boys to practice sing for our choir group class they said "no need to practice, we have to learn bla bla bla"... Hate them so much...

What's going on with me???

I don't know what's going on with me... I'm starting to love someone that once hurt my feeling... He was my ex BF... What can I do... He's looking handsome since he broke up with his GF that after me... BTW I love you NAZIRUL FARIS...

080809

Today is my mom birthday n Goh Pei Ni or most of us call her Nini...Happy birthday!!! Yay one of my kerja kursus is done.. Now I have to find biography... Lazy LOL... HUH so tired yawh today...My school had larian perdana... So tired... I feel like I want to sleep... But if I sleep who will help my mom... My bro??? He's sleeping... He was lazy than me...

latihan larian perdana 2009

Wohoo so tired.. None of the form 2 were my class.. All of them kinda lazy.. I guess not all of them but almost all of them.. Some of them have their own reason whay they are not coming.. I feel like I don't want to come to school.. But I feel lost if I don't come to school.. Because I can't see him face..

Love 4

i do love him.. But a lot of people say that he was a bad guy.. But for me he's ok.. Yeah I know I don't know him well.. But he seem so nice.. Funny, attract me.. love him.. so much..

Love 3

Yeah I do like him.. But he ignore me, and I have so many choice that I have to choose.. And now I admit that I like someone named Muhd Khairi from 2A4.. Like him so much.. He so cute, handsome and charming also.. Funny(sometimes).. Always make me laught..

Lonely!!!

I feel so lonely right now.. I really want to have a BF, a BF that care about me, that love me because who I am, that love me not because I'm cute, beautiful or etc.. But because my behaviour.. Owh please I really want a BF right now..

Homework

I feel like I want to die thinking about homework.. Many homework that I haven't finish.. Math, sejarah, science, Bm and English.. All kerja khusus I haven't finish.. The virus of 'L' attack me.. It means virus of lazyness..

Love again..

Erm... Today even though I see him.. But I really miss him.. Still hoping that he will be mine.. When the school time is finish he was the last one went out from his class, and he looked at me.. Wow he was totally cute and charming.. Love him so much.. Okey now I'm very sleepy..

Punishment!!!

haha almost all of my classmate been punish with our Bahasa Melayu teacher.. Bcoz we didn't bring the karangan book.. So we just stand for several minute n teacher ask us did we bring the tatabahasa n just several pupil didn't bring it n we can sit.. wohoo what a great day even though that day have perhimpunan.. Owh hate it.. Just make me tired stand there for 30 minute, scold pupil that making noise, ask them to sit properly.. wow so boring..

Still l0ve him!!!

I still l0ve him.. And I will wait till I be his GF.. Even he doesn't say anything yet.. I will still l0ve him.. I will 0nly st0p l0ve him if he said that he doesn't l0ve me.. But i just can't stop thinking of him.. Every day, every minute, every second.. I just want to be loved by him only.. Just he..

Someone that so special

Although we were just friend.. But you are so special to me.. Every thing that you did was so special to me.. What you say were so special to me.. You are charming to.. Yeah I admit that I like you.. Because you are so kind.. Always make me laugh.. But sometime disappoint me.. But just sometimes.. I want you to know that you are so special in my life..

The only guy that I love...

That was the guy that I was always talking about... His name is Ahmad Hasyir... His class was2A4(for those that schooling at SMKTM will know about it)... yeah the picture was not clear, bcoz I stole that picture from his myspace... Sorry... But he was good looking person right??? So I have to stop writing now... Bcoz I'm a little tired... So till next time... Bubbye...

I'm deeply in love babe!!!

herm... Today he didn't come...

I miss him so much...

Bcoz I can't see his sweet face...

When he smile at me...

I feel like I was so lucky to receive that smile...

He was so handsome,charming n sweet...

Sometime he was matured n sometime childish...

But I like that childish behaviour...

I still hope that he was my BF...

Love him so much...

Even if he does'nt know that...

But it's okay...

I understand...

I love him very much!!!

Yeah that's right I love him. Just like what I say in my previous blog. Oh I can't wait till I be his GF. Bcoz I love him(how many time did I have to repeat that word).Oh plz I want to die now. Okey I don'tcare if he ignore me. I just want him to know that I need him so much. He is very important in my life. He is the one that I will care a lot. I will give full attention to him(except if exam is near). I will give half of my love to him(the other love is for my family). I will give him happiness even if I have to cry bcoz of him. Till then yeah guys.(I got no ideas what else to write)

I'm crazy with love darl!!!

oh I love him so much. I don't care what people say. I just want him only. He was the guy that I will love forever. Even if we broke up. I will still love him. He is very important to me. I need him very much. I really-really need him in my life. Love him more than I can say.